A Warm Place

The fire was slowly dying, so I reached into it and pulled out its heart. I gave it to you, to keep you warm, but you dropped it on the ground. “That's not enough,” you said. I asked you what you wanted and you said it was nothing I could give, and then you started to cry. Your tears washed me away, down the hills and over the streams until I ended up in a playground where horses rode children and wolves danced around the swings like lost boys. They sang an ancient song of love and loss, and I thought I could understand the words but that was just a coincidence. I asked the wolves how to get home and they pointed towards the slide, so I ran up it. At the top of the slide was the moon, full and pregnant. I jumped on top of it and it rose into the sky as raindrops fell; rain fell all around and made me think of you because whenever I picture you you're always crying. I wish I knew how to make you stop but then I realize I'm crying too and always have been. Maybe that's what love is, looking for the person who can stop the tears, tears of rage and anger and cold and soul. And maybe love is realizing that you can stop them yourself, that you're the only one who really can, and then sharing that knowledge with another and helping them to realize it too. I want to find you to tell you this, but then I remember you left me years ago and aren't coming back.